[As he relaxes, she leans forward, free hand brushing back the white hair that's sticking to the sweat on his brow, kissing him on the forehead.]
Sleeping somewhere else won't make the nightmares go away, Shiro. [Knowing him, he probably wouldn't sleep.] You're just...it's not an easy think to overcome. Not on your own.
[He needs this sleep; he's exhausted. But he just can't, not with these constant nightmares. It just makes him more tired than he was to begin with. The touch on his forehead makes him sigh quietly, eyes closing.]
Then what do we do? I'm no good to the team like this... No good to you, either.
[Her hand is back to resting at his cheek, and she presses her forehead ahead his, closing her eyes and humming thoughtfully. She admires him, admires the strength he manages for the sake of the team, the weight of responsibility he seems to uphold.
But sometimes, like now, when his thoughts go to the team and to her first, instead of himself...
So she doesn't answer him, not immediately, and she drags her hand down from his face to curl her fingers under his chin, tipping his head up so she can kiss him, pulling back to look at him, still tilting his chin up.]
You...should stop worrying about what's good for me. I wouldn't being sharing my bed with you if you weren't good to me.
[Allura has the unique ability to quiet Shiro's thoughts. Whether through affection or just her comforting, solid presence, she helps him to see more clearly, to calm the chaos that his mind can become. She's the only one that soothes the nightmares and vivid flashbacks.
Shiro should be in control, as the leader. He shouldn't need someone the way he needs Allura, but he does. His protests quiet with her kiss, and he lets himself focus on her, just her. It's...cathartic.]
I know you have Coran to protect you, but it's my job to make sure everyone is alright. And as your...whatever we are...I'm especially interested in your wellbeing. [He leans in to press a soft kiss to her cheek.] You deserve the very best. More than I can offer.
[When he leans in to kiss her, she acquiesces, fingers trailing from his chin across his jawline, hand coming to rest at his neck. Even after however long they've been together like this, he still has her feeling giddy, and yet...
There's a flicker of something in her eyes when he says she deserves more than he can offer. He's noble, charmingly so, but there are moments where he can just be so dense with responsibility that he doesn't realize that he's sharing his bed with someone who is also responsible for the team, including him. Something settles in her gaze, and her hands move to settle on his shoulders, feeling a wave of that same something coil in her gut as she pulls herself up to sit astride his lap, looking him in the eye.]
Shiro. [She says his name again, and there's a bit of a careful edge to her voice.] You offer a lot to this relationship. Sometimes, even more than you realize...
[Her hands trail back up along the line of his neck, along his jawline, and then she drags her fingers through his hair, still looking intently at him.]
And I am interested in your well being. As your princess, it's my job to make sure you're all right. That you're protected.
[Her weight in his lap draws a quiet sound from Shiro, his hands ghosting down her sides to rest at her hips. The metal in his cybernetic arm has cooled now, but he's still careful touching her with it. Shiro's chest is bare and scarred before her, a year's worth of various tortures written there on his skin.
He wants to close his eyes at her touches, but her gaze is so intense that he can't look away, breath catching in her throat. It's easy to forget that Allura is alien.]
How can you protect me from what's already happened? [It isn't meant to be rude or discouraging, merely a reminder that she can't fix the damage that has long since been done.]
I can't. [She says it sadly, gaze drifting from his to look down at the scars that lay bare on his chest. She detangles her hands from his hair, fingers now carefully tracing along some of those scars, cool fingers against warm skin.
His arms at her hips feel like an anchor, one of which that keeps her grounded, feeling steady. And she wants to be the same for him. He takes too much authority at times, to the point where she thinks it troubles him even more. Almost as though he forgets that he isn't the authority of this ship.]
But I can protect you from what's to come. And I can... [She pauses, fanning her palms out against the expanse of his chest, leaning in again to kiss his jawline. Her lips drag, murmuring the rest of what she says against his skin.] protect you from your thoughts.
[Her gentle touch makes him shiver slightly, her kisses sending goosebumps across his arms and shoulders.]
You are...very good at keeping me distracted. [His eyes close briefly, tilting his head back to give her access to his throat. It's his way of surrendering to her, letting her know he is willing to give her that power over him. It's taken time to get comfortable with that after his abduction, but he trusts her completely.]
[She takes advantage of him tilting his head back, sucking at the skin of his throat, enough to leave a mark but only a temporary one, knowing his complete trust in her, and wanting to take advantage of that.
But have it benefit him as much as it does for her.]
I want you to sleep easier Shiro. [Her lips drag lazily at his neck as she speaks, putting pressure against his chest to ease him down against the bed.] Maybe...if you only think of me, [another kiss] dream of me, [and she sucks at his skin once more] that will help.
[Shiro's breath hitches, eyes closing in pleasure. Allura is great at distractions, blocking out all the negative thoughts and nightmares he has far too often.
His leader though...Shiro's eyes open again.] I can try.
[At that, Allura draws back, sitting up and staying straddled at his lap. Holding his gaze in her own, she keeps her hands braced at his chest, grinding harder down against him, gauging his reaction.]
And I can do what I want with you? Whatever it is that I want?
[He's well aware she's trying to get him riled up, and it's working. Very well. Shiro tilts his head back, eyes sliding shut as he grips her hips and rocks up against her.]
[She exhales sharply as he rocks against her, but in response to him grabbing her hips, she brings her hands atop his, removing them from her hips and moving them above his head, one hand holding his wrists together as she looks down at him.]
Then relax, and I'll take care of you. And only touch me when I say you can.
[She lets go of his wrists, sitting back again to pull off her nightgown in one fluid motion, breasts bare. Leaning forward, she presses an open-mouth kiss to his chest before gently nipping at his nipple.]
[He relaxes his arms, letting her pull them up without difficulty. He's not sure exactly what she's planning, but he doesn't need to.
She's the superior. He's just following orders today. He can do that.
Not touching is going to be difficult, but he can manage it, fingers twitching slightly as she bares herself to him. She's absolutely beautiful, and he groans, watching her.]
[It's hard not to laugh at that, rough, husky from arousal, and she looks up at him.]
Princess would suffice.
[But she pockets that question for another time. It's not a no. She shifts back a bit, biting his nipple harder this time before laving around it with her tongue, trailing long, drawn out kisses down along his chest and abdomen, sucking every so often to leave marks that will show. She's exploring his body at her own pace for now, letting her bare breasts drag against his skin as she continues down, coming to pause at his navel and dipping her tongue experimentally against it, bright blue eyes looking up at him, bringing her hands to rest at his hips, thumbs tucking under the band of his underwear.]
Princess... [He blushes slightly at his completely forgetting the obvious title, leaning back and letting her work.
It's easy to forget the responsibility that Allura must feel. Shiro's been so caught up in leading that he hasn't thought about Allura being the true ruler here. He's just shouldered the burden for her instead, instinctively falling into that role that the younger paladins have assigned him.
And it's best that he's in charge, really. He knows how to make the hard decisions when needed, and he can keep a level head better than most of them. But these nightmares, these flashbacks, are seriously impairing his ability to lead and to take care of everyone.
But Allura knows what to do. Gentle Allura, kind and wise and beautiful, who's lost everything but her hope. He wants to protect her, to shield her from it, but that's not her style and he ought to know better by now. She is his superior, and here, in the bedroom, she is in complete control of him and his body.
Shiro's fingers twitch with the desire to touch her, soft noises escaping him as she works. She slides lower, and a throaty groan escapes him, his cock stirring beneath his black briefs.]
[She likes the way her title sounds on his lips, her insides coiling with a heated anticipation, the husky sound of his voice, the soft noises he makes in tandem with her lips and tongue dragging across his skin.
She wants him to think of her. Only her. To drown out the thoughts that plague him nightly, have him only crying out from pleasure, not from pain. Give him new things to think about, better memories and sensations to fall asleep to.
She removes her tongue from his navel, trailing a line along lower, following where the soft fine hairs start to grow thicker, but instead of conceding and pulling down his briefs, she nuzzles his clothed cock, trailing her tongue along the outline, lazily dragging against the fabric.
Please, he says, but she's in charge, so she'll continue at her own pace.]
You're mine, Shiro. As long as you are in my room, sleeping beside me...you're mine.
[She doesn't yield to his pleading, continuing the exquisite torture, and Shiro lets out a hoarse, broken moan, hips raising slightly to press against her. His eyes flutter, breath coming out in noisy pants.]
All yours, Princess. [He licks his lips, watching her with desperate anticipation.]
[She replies to the raise of his hips by placing her lips around his shaft, mouthing around the material. There's a huff of a warm laugh, and she tucks her fingers under the waistband, finally tugging his briefs down and sitting back to remove them in full, tossing them off the bed before better positioning herself between his legs.
She rests one hand against his bare hip, the other taking hold of his length. There's a low hum, and she presses the flat of her tongue at the head of his cock, licking the beading of precum, eyes looking up to watch him, glittering with an aroused enjoyment of simply having him at her control before she finally wraps her lips around him, taking him only halfway for now, her motions slow and languid.]
[She is incredible when she's in control like this. Shiro lets go, lets her control him and take over, and it's...a good feeling. Letting someone else lead. He trusts her, and she trusts him. A partnership that he's never experienced elsewhere, and Shiro starts to think that maybe he can actually shift some of the burden of leadership to her.
A ridiculous thought, really, since Allura has always been the one in charge all along, but finally accepting that is cathartic.
Shiro gasps sharply when she mouths around him, cock twitching beneath his briefs. He's leaking precum, desperate for more, and he groans in relief when she finally removes that last layer of fabric. Gods, she loves to tease, and Shiro watches her through half-lidded eyes, panting softly and begging silently for more.
Finally, finally, her mouth is around him, hot and slick, and Shiro gasps out a soft swear, his toes curling slightly.]
[There's no getting used to how he tastes compared to the past Altean partners she's had. But it's...good. In fact, everything about him is good, and the way he gasps her name has her humming in response, still teasing him shallow in her mouth, sucking up and removing it from around him to run her tongue from base to shaft, looking up at him.]
Shiro, [she practically whispers it against him, kissing his cock] you're such a good paladin... [another kiss, and another languid drag of her tongue.] a good lover...I'm glad to have you to myself.
[Her voice is husky with the praise, and this time she takes him in her mouth in full, humming as she slowly sucks him off, not looking to get him off just yet, but to lavish him slowly, grinding herself against the duvet bunched up between her legs.]
[The praise turns him on almost as much as her touches. It's not something one might expect from a senior officer, a pilot in his own right, a commander of their own little fleet, if Voltron could even be called that. But after all his mistakes, after his time in hell, Shiro laps up genuine compliments eagerly.
He moans, fingers twitching again as his toes curl slightly. His cock is leaking steadily, a slow dribble of precum, and he wants to badly to slide his hands into her hair.]
All yours, Princess. [Another low groan.] I love being all yours.
[He's so eager, and she knows just how her compliments affect him. It's why she's keen on praising him so readily, humming contentedly at his words, swallowing his precum down almost greedily when she has him pressed at the back of her throat. And she continues, head moving at a languid pace, tongue pressing firmly against his cock each time she draws up.
So she's a bit too preoccupied to respond, but she finally does relinquish him for a moment, to catch her breath, running her thumb across her lower lip to wipe at the sheen of her saliva, looking up at him.]
And you'll always be mine. [She kisses the head of his cock once more, and she begins to crawl forward over him, practically looming over him protectively, her long hair draping over her shoulders. She's removed her undergarments in the process, straddling his hips, the warm wet of her slit dragging over his cock as she leans forward, holding his face in her hands, running her thumbs fondly across his cheekbones.] No one else will have you. No one else will hurt you... [And she kisses him deeply, rutting against him while doing so, and then pulls back, looking at him with a serious expression.] I won't let that happen.
I love you. That's all you need to think about when you're with me.
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Date: 2016-08-26 11:20 pm (UTC)Sleeping somewhere else won't make the nightmares go away, Shiro. [Knowing him, he probably wouldn't sleep.] You're just...it's not an easy think to overcome. Not on your own.
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Date: 2016-08-26 11:51 pm (UTC)Then what do we do? I'm no good to the team like this... No good to you, either.
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Date: 2016-08-27 12:08 am (UTC)But sometimes, like now, when his thoughts go to the team and to her first, instead of himself...
So she doesn't answer him, not immediately, and she drags her hand down from his face to curl her fingers under his chin, tipping his head up so she can kiss him, pulling back to look at him, still tilting his chin up.]
You...should stop worrying about what's good for me. I wouldn't being sharing my bed with you if you weren't good to me.
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Date: 2016-08-27 02:23 am (UTC)Shiro should be in control, as the leader. He shouldn't need someone the way he needs Allura, but he does. His protests quiet with her kiss, and he lets himself focus on her, just her. It's...cathartic.]
I know you have Coran to protect you, but it's my job to make sure everyone is alright. And as your...whatever we are...I'm especially interested in your wellbeing. [He leans in to press a soft kiss to her cheek.] You deserve the very best. More than I can offer.
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Date: 2016-08-27 02:52 am (UTC)There's a flicker of something in her eyes when he says she deserves more than he can offer. He's noble, charmingly so, but there are moments where he can just be so dense with responsibility that he doesn't realize that he's sharing his bed with someone who is also responsible for the team, including him. Something settles in her gaze, and her hands move to settle on his shoulders, feeling a wave of that same something coil in her gut as she pulls herself up to sit astride his lap, looking him in the eye.]
Shiro. [She says his name again, and there's a bit of a careful edge to her voice.] You offer a lot to this relationship. Sometimes, even more than you realize...
[Her hands trail back up along the line of his neck, along his jawline, and then she drags her fingers through his hair, still looking intently at him.]
And I am interested in your well being. As your princess, it's my job to make sure you're all right. That you're protected.
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Date: 2016-08-27 02:04 pm (UTC)He wants to close his eyes at her touches, but her gaze is so intense that he can't look away, breath catching in her throat. It's easy to forget that Allura is alien.]
How can you protect me from what's already happened? [It isn't meant to be rude or discouraging, merely a reminder that she can't fix the damage that has long since been done.]
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Date: 2016-08-27 04:27 pm (UTC)His arms at her hips feel like an anchor, one of which that keeps her grounded, feeling steady. And she wants to be the same for him. He takes too much authority at times, to the point where she thinks it troubles him even more. Almost as though he forgets that he isn't the authority of this ship.]
But I can protect you from what's to come. And I can... [She pauses, fanning her palms out against the expanse of his chest, leaning in again to kiss his jawline. Her lips drag, murmuring the rest of what she says against his skin.] protect you from your thoughts.
Help you let go.
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Date: 2016-08-27 06:03 pm (UTC)You are...very good at keeping me distracted. [His eyes close briefly, tilting his head back to give her access to his throat. It's his way of surrendering to her, letting her know he is willing to give her that power over him. It's taken time to get comfortable with that after his abduction, but he trusts her completely.]
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Date: 2016-08-27 06:20 pm (UTC)[She takes advantage of him tilting his head back, sucking at the skin of his throat, enough to leave a mark but only a temporary one, knowing his complete trust in her, and wanting to take advantage of that.
But have it benefit him as much as it does for her.]
I want you to sleep easier Shiro. [Her lips drag lazily at his neck as she speaks, putting pressure against his chest to ease him down against the bed.] Maybe...if you only think of me, [another kiss] dream of me, [and she sucks at his skin once more] that will help.
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Date: 2016-08-27 07:23 pm (UTC)Think only of you? Heh...I think I can manage that. [He makes a small noise of pleasure at that.]
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Date: 2016-08-27 10:06 pm (UTC)And do you think you can manage letting go? [Aaand another nip to his neck.] Let me take control of things from here?
As your leader?
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Date: 2016-08-30 03:25 pm (UTC)His leader though...Shiro's eyes open again.] I can try.
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Date: 2016-08-30 09:46 pm (UTC)And I can do what I want with you? Whatever it is that I want?
[She just wants to make sure.]
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Date: 2016-08-31 01:31 pm (UTC)Anything you want. I'm yours to command.
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Date: 2016-08-31 06:32 pm (UTC)[She exhales sharply as he rocks against her, but in response to him grabbing her hips, she brings her hands atop his, removing them from her hips and moving them above his head, one hand holding his wrists together as she looks down at him.]
Then relax, and I'll take care of you. And only touch me when I say you can.
[She lets go of his wrists, sitting back again to pull off her nightgown in one fluid motion, breasts bare. Leaning forward, she presses an open-mouth kiss to his chest before gently nipping at his nipple.]
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Date: 2016-09-01 01:26 am (UTC)She's the superior. He's just following orders today. He can do that.
Not touching is going to be difficult, but he can manage it, fingers twitching slightly as she bares herself to him. She's absolutely beautiful, and he groans, watching her.]
Should I call you Mistress?
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Date: 2016-09-01 01:41 am (UTC)Princess would suffice.
[But she pockets that question for another time. It's not a no. She shifts back a bit, biting his nipple harder this time before laving around it with her tongue, trailing long, drawn out kisses down along his chest and abdomen, sucking every so often to leave marks that will show. She's exploring his body at her own pace for now, letting her bare breasts drag against his skin as she continues down, coming to pause at his navel and dipping her tongue experimentally against it, bright blue eyes looking up at him, bringing her hands to rest at his hips, thumbs tucking under the band of his underwear.]
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Date: 2016-09-01 05:14 pm (UTC)It's easy to forget the responsibility that Allura must feel. Shiro's been so caught up in leading that he hasn't thought about Allura being the true ruler here. He's just shouldered the burden for her instead, instinctively falling into that role that the younger paladins have assigned him.
And it's best that he's in charge, really. He knows how to make the hard decisions when needed, and he can keep a level head better than most of them. But these nightmares, these flashbacks, are seriously impairing his ability to lead and to take care of everyone.
But Allura knows what to do. Gentle Allura, kind and wise and beautiful, who's lost everything but her hope. He wants to protect her, to shield her from it, but that's not her style and he ought to know better by now. She is his superior, and here, in the bedroom, she is in complete control of him and his body.
Shiro's fingers twitch with the desire to touch her, soft noises escaping him as she works. She slides lower, and a throaty groan escapes him, his cock stirring beneath his black briefs.]
Please, Princess...
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Date: 2016-09-14 08:15 pm (UTC)She wants him to think of her. Only her. To drown out the thoughts that plague him nightly, have him only crying out from pleasure, not from pain. Give him new things to think about, better memories and sensations to fall asleep to.
She removes her tongue from his navel, trailing a line along lower, following where the soft fine hairs start to grow thicker, but instead of conceding and pulling down his briefs, she nuzzles his clothed cock, trailing her tongue along the outline, lazily dragging against the fabric.
Please, he says, but she's in charge, so she'll continue at her own pace.]
You're mine, Shiro. As long as you are in my room, sleeping beside me...you're mine.
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Date: 2016-09-21 12:51 pm (UTC)All yours, Princess. [He licks his lips, watching her with desperate anticipation.]
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Date: 2016-09-22 08:06 pm (UTC)She rests one hand against his bare hip, the other taking hold of his length. There's a low hum, and she presses the flat of her tongue at the head of his cock, licking the beading of precum, eyes looking up to watch him, glittering with an aroused enjoyment of simply having him at her control before she finally wraps her lips around him, taking him only halfway for now, her motions slow and languid.]
man icons get so awkward during smut threads....
Date: 2016-09-27 10:04 pm (UTC)A ridiculous thought, really, since Allura has always been the one in charge all along, but finally accepting that is cathartic.
Shiro gasps sharply when she mouths around him, cock twitching beneath his briefs. He's leaking precum, desperate for more, and he groans in relief when she finally removes that last layer of fabric. Gods, she loves to tease, and Shiro watches her through half-lidded eyes, panting softly and begging silently for more.
Finally, finally, her mouth is around him, hot and slick, and Shiro gasps out a soft swear, his toes curling slightly.]
Allura!
LMF I KNOW.....
Date: 2016-09-28 05:41 pm (UTC)Shiro, [she practically whispers it against him, kissing his cock] you're such a good paladin... [another kiss, and another languid drag of her tongue.] a good lover...I'm glad to have you to myself.
[Her voice is husky with the praise, and this time she takes him in her mouth in full, humming as she slowly sucks him off, not looking to get him off just yet, but to lavish him slowly, grinding herself against the duvet bunched up between her legs.]
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Date: 2016-09-30 02:43 am (UTC)He moans, fingers twitching again as his toes curl slightly. His cock is leaking steadily, a slow dribble of precum, and he wants to badly to slide his hands into her hair.]
All yours, Princess. [Another low groan.] I love being all yours.
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Date: 2016-09-30 05:23 am (UTC)So she's a bit too preoccupied to respond, but she finally does relinquish him for a moment, to catch her breath, running her thumb across her lower lip to wipe at the sheen of her saliva, looking up at him.]
And you'll always be mine. [She kisses the head of his cock once more, and she begins to crawl forward over him, practically looming over him protectively, her long hair draping over her shoulders. She's removed her undergarments in the process, straddling his hips, the warm wet of her slit dragging over his cock as she leans forward, holding his face in her hands, running her thumbs fondly across his cheekbones.] No one else will have you. No one else will hurt you... [And she kisses him deeply, rutting against him while doing so, and then pulls back, looking at him with a serious expression.] I won't let that happen.
I love you. That's all you need to think about when you're with me.